Sepi

Sitting in the dark... staring at the screen.. thinking of what to write... how to express me... in few lines of words.. without repeating the old lame story... pastu. blank...

i visited our director who was admitted to the hospital due to heart problem.. Kuasa tuhan kan... even minor surgery turn out to be a major failure... even there's probability of permanent damage to the body...

as i stand in front of his bed.. staring at the helpless him.. sayu~~~ sangat sayu~~... i still remember how one of his eye open and close as if acknowledging our presence.. it seem like he used all his remaining energy to tell all his visitors that : thank you for coming and dont worry to much about me...skali lagi... sayu~~..

knowing this great man as an active and kind hearted person, seeing him lying on the bed with wires and tubes connecting all over his body really breaks my heart.. students, staffs, lecturers.. despite of their race and religion, set their own little prayer in silent hoping for the best for him... what touches me the most his all his kids were around to entertain the guest with full courage.. despite of the warmth smile.. the eye shows no lies... the pain, the agony and the hurt are far beyond describe... as if the whole USM is under mourning...solat hajat, bacaan yassin are being conducted non stop.. visitors never ends... they keep coming.. because they care.. they hope his fast recovery...

as i was away from his ward... lagu Sepi started to play... the sound of Aizat's guitar strumming is all over my head... creating this emptiness that blanks me.. i was carried away... i made jokes and laugh myself out..to keep me back to reality... to not being sucked by the negative force... astarfirullahhalazim...

p/s: You are the almighty.. every mean of your action is with purpose.. yet.. please.. save him and let him continue his mission to serve.. to serve the people and to serve You... amin...