I'm trying to Be Normal

This morning i had that break down again!! That sudden urge of depression and need to do something to pleased myself and free myself from being miserable.. i thought after i had Rebung Masak Lemak dekat bakti and I’ll end up with acceleration of mood. Yukkss!! not true.. my anxiety disorder caused me to turn all the way back home and pick up my wallet (ako mmg suka lupa bw wallet g lab..n im driving??..Thank God.. I’m alive and still manage to prevent myself from continue cursing the police force for any tickets or attempting to bribe me!!!)..

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So.. En Roy ngan Aziah (Without Jojo - tgh on xperimen n Lina - membuat cendol-cendol free dari salur pernafasannya..) pn join la my hunt for Church Street.. Turn punya turn punya turn.. last last.. ako mendial arkib negara : "Weh ako kt Bishop Street nih.. Mana aah Church street?"..sebelah n selari rupanya.. pusing la plak.. alamak.. no entry.. pusing lagik!! ishhh no 28 is the other side la.. corner lagik.. ahhh "aziah kanan, En Roy kiri!!".. malangnya.. no even sign of underwater creature existed along the street..

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Last last.. in order to please myself n calm myself down, i went to Hobi - Sport n got myself my very very first 2 equiptments for the whole expensive set.. hehehe i bought pair of glove for RM 40.50 (ori price : RM 139.90)and Booties RM 40 (Ori price : 129.90).. (En Tayar 2, saya tidak akan menyesal kerana membeli nya!! no mirror confession akan dilakukan kali ini)..

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hehehehe yeah yeah.. pastu p lak cari tin cat anti bacteria.. Nippon rupa-rupanya the only brand with this features.. The cat will be used for the cell culture room.. Suma need to be sterelize.. maka dinding pn kena!! heheheh so.. dengan gumbiranya ako balik... wahhh mood ako sgt baik hari ini.. ditambah lak ngan hehehe pa ako yg baik ati menanyakan adakah ako perlu meminjam duit dia tuk bli all the equipt.. wawawa...mesti la!!..heheheh opppss ako soon akan jd penghutang!! omg.. demi full gear~~~~~ sanggup ja..

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aishhh adik hitamku akan balik dan menghantam kata-kata kesatnya memerli wat im doing n trying to do.. haiiihh~~~
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Kenormalan Hujung Minggu

Sunday marks another end to the weekend that were filled with kenduri (omg.. thinking of the nasi minyak and to highlight the "minyak!!"..) minus the cancellation of aerobic session.. replaced by Starwalk.. yeah slightly similar to Penang Bridge run.. eh.. tak tak.. that crazy run keeps you running in the dark and in the wee hour!! .. i was thinking of participating with my pa next year..sure he's going to tinggal me metersss away.. did i ever mentioned that he walk like my mother run..hahahaha.. maybe faster..

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My obsession syndrom attacking again.. this time is to survey and lay my wawawa ringgit to the diving shop.. Yesterday i made my pa ride me to the town and pusing all over the possible place in search of diving shop.. I jotted down the address of all the possible shop.. and with the estimated location.. we started our hunting. It was 3pm yo!!.. of coz on motor ex5 antik tu.. what do u expect, driving down to town during weekend.. we might not make it for dinner... so round n round.. from Hutton lane, to island plaza, along bagan jermal, up to tanjung tokong, then half way batu feringgi.. his getting impatient so we ended our search with gurney plaza then..heheheh last was paya terubong's permata complex...

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And the result? sial!! satu pn tak dapat.. we cant even locate the shop!! the one in Gurney is freakingly expensive!!! 500 for pair of fin.. ako cirit kat salesgirl tu baru tau.. Heheheh.. My kepala batu tells me not to stop searching until im satisfied.. so i have this escape plan tomorrow during lunch hour if possible.. Found another address in the yellow pages..ya ya i learnt from the mistake la.. ill give them a call then get the nearby landmark and building..

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p/s: when it comes to location, i'm dumber then a bimbo!! i dont even know that the road along the Nasi Kandar Line Clear is called Penang Road until early this year..hekhekhek..Faez.. if ako can keep hg in my pocket during my trip n hunting, i will!! heheheheh

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another p/s: sial internet kat rumah ako seems to block any photo uploading..!!

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last p/s: those with controlled temper (ako nya makin kurang kwalan..heheh) please feel free to join me in places n shop hunting next time..register yourself!!!

Small Blink Blink

Let us.. close our eye.. breath.. then think.. if any thing happen to you.. who will be the most badly effected? ...

A few days ago i was doing this crazy thinking on "what will happen after i left?".. then i started my own fairytale of moarning.. i was doing so time before ako tido.. so my eye widely blink in the dark here and there..one by one images silih berganti.. then i remembered clearly.. i can see my mama's pale, expressionless glare..ya.. i cannot let anything happen to me.. coz she couldnt live without me around.. that's wat she claimed all the times.. again and again.. hekhek.. tak mo bagi ako p jauh nya ayat faveret.. haihhh.. ako pn tak tou kenapa perlu ako post pasal ni...heheh sbb ako tgk ramai ja post kosong..heheh maka horeyy to post kosong..

quiz for all: who do u think will be badly effected if u left this world?

p/s: ako dah dapar breaking down dah..tp penyakit malas mula menjalar.. yoosshh!!

Ako dan Sekarang

Lama nya jari penuh parut ako tak menari di atas buttons nih.. wahh.. benda yang abis gempar yang ako buat will be baru balik dari singapore and i was on the stupid bodo nya bus dari KL ke Penang for 8 hours.. Bodo gila dia berenti merata.. and i was so weakly sick that time.. haihhh sila amik iktibar ini dan jgn sesekali naik bus yang disyorkan oleh ulat-ulat kat pudu tuh.. i should have just head to Transnational counter or Konsortium.. tp ako sgt la tak larat that time dgn barang2 yang bnyk.. now im getting better and resume to work..

USM is having pesta hoki skali lagi.. tetiba sayu ja ako tringat bdk2 hoki SMK Sungai Ara dulu.. We practices so hard and alhamdulillah bagi team yang baru ditubuhkan, we manage to be 2nd in Penang state.. Sepatutnya we won, but ako terlepas tahan the last ball.. ceh.. bukan rezeki sungguh..Skrang hampir suma budak hoki dah kawin and even beranak.. so its impossible for a reunion game dah.. haisshh kitaran hidup kita ni kejap ja.. today u are this and tomorow dah jadi lain.. Despite of who you turn out to be.. May the Force always be with you and may all of u find ur success.. Amin..

Inner Emptiness Refilled

I am an addict now!! Yoshh.. my craziness towards novel came again..skali lagi adik ako cakap : “aah hg mmg hot hot sgala shit yang ada kt dunia nih”..hehehe for the pass 5 days i’ve manage to filled my inner emptiness with 3 romantic story plots from Eclipse (wow what take me so long!!ahakz..), PS I love You and The notebook.. The last two were special contribution by Nadia.. Thanks ya!!.. At least i felt contented!! Ahakzz..

PS I Love You deliver a special message on gathering your strength to face the world after one of the major strength of your life collapse.. I was caught by the reading temptation the moment i set my eye on the first page.. Pages over pages made me realised that love wont vanished in the thin air just like that.. falling in love might be easy but falling out of love on the person that u felt so much is harder than anyone can imagine.. Yeah.. I cried across the sorrow plots, laugh with them over their silliness and their spontaneous joke and conversation.. With Gerald Butler on the cover..ahakzz lagi lah..~~ sempat lagi ako wat iklan..

The Notebook.. Cover depan dia akan menyebabkan my mama n pa curiga what type of book am i reading.. hello 23 ok.. pass all the adult section..ahahaha.. Tapi this book is definitely not to judge based on the cover.. Its a classic love story that captivate my heart.. I was so touched how can 2 person that was apart for 15 years managed to find themselves strongly attracted to each other again.. And how the love they carried along with their 49 years of marriage still burning although fate ripped off their last few years of the weak pounding of heart beats..

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Apart from what i felt for Edward Cullen from the saga sensation, Eclipse still far behind in conveying the love message as other senior writers..

sambungan kepada kekuciwaan

ako post nih dari cik ruby..so kelam kabut skit..we shall start with the main actors n actresses,..tp please bare in mind that suma ni my sarcastic opinion semata2...no offends.. U may agree or disagree..up to u..hehehe

Bella - She knows very well that she loves edward like gila gila..then at d same time she flirt with jacob..i was like..what?ya.. life has to go on.. The way to cure d broken heart will be start dating again.. Tp.. Geramnya.. Com on girl.. U heart broke, at d same time u want to break others?what is it so great about needing a constant partner by your side for her to live?edward left n she was like mayat hidup.. jacob came to her life..dia ok blk..then jacob wat hal skit dia down blk..mcm la dlm hidup mati dia tuk ada partner ja..makcik marah nih dia curang kt edward!!

Edward - i was hell into this guy..he used to be weird,strong,charismatic,n charming in d first one..and manage to drive me partially insane to buy some magazines with his pics n stories..siap jd cm stalker pn ada..asyk browse through the net for his gossip update..lokkooo!!! Ahh percaya la..tidak akan ako buat dh.. Tp this one, ako rasa cm he was over reacted.. Faking pn ada gak.. As if he tried too hard..not natural anymore..his aura definately off my reach or sense.. Their eye contacts were less fire and passion..

Jacob - a 17 years old boy with d wow bravo body...fuhh..breath..this guy..he knows he's good loking n he tried to be good looking in most of d scene..gaya cover macho gitu..kali ni mmg platform yg bnyk tonjolkan his character.. Not as good as expected.. Still sedikit kaku...

they definately need to go to acting class more n rehearse more n more for d next one.. Ako goyang kpala ja la..next time.. Dont put too high expecration on your interest..ull end up cursing them like me!!

NEW MOON Disappointment!!

Yeah!! sgt sgt mendown kan ako!!

ako frust gila ngan muvie nih.. i just came back from the kononnya most-awaited-muvie.. wawawaw.. u know what? its not worth!! but memandangkan ako byr only student price..then sabar ja la..

What went wrong? why cant they just stick to the original director? nak bagi nafas baru? it's not syncronize anymore.. probably because the pressure n too high expectations.. the actors n actress were all stressed out.. I just couldn't feel them like i did with twilight.. the emotion conflicks wasnt quite there.. I couldnt feel.. wawawa.. Rob Pat.. U let me down~~