Bestie is getting married!
I'll be one of the bridesmaids.
I'm happy for her.
I feel dreadful for myself.
I have faith in your arrangement.
I pray that he'll be worth of all these waiting.
Do align my heart if it strays.
If it is fated to be not occupied,
Do strengthen it to face days to come.
Do fill it with your love and blesses.
Do put loneliness and emptiness away from it.
I was a little bit stressful today.
Long hours in the lab.
And found that i lost my steering lock key.
And need to rent a car back home.
Pa said my spare key is no where to be found.
And so i laid down on the floor.
Then i browse through instagram.
And fav page is Fynn Jamal's.
And i saw Juna's face smilling.
And some of his short vid laughing n playing.
And i am charged!
If i just happen to be unlucky to be unmarried,
I'll be a mother.
Ya.. again.. for the mek-tak-sure how many times. I wanna be pretty uolss! (Slaps kiri 2x, kanan 4x). Before that, this statement was type in between me slurping my just-made laksa (taste wise? improving!! ^.^V).. ahhh melalut lagik..
As usual la.. end of the month we tend to fantasize this and that while counting days bila laaaaa hari gaji nih wehhh!!! But then this suka-belanja-cam-pegawai besar nih tend to overspent every month! Weirdly, i dont buy expensive baju or what. Dine at home most of the time. But money flies buying tiny things (My bro's fav ayat: Hang mmg suka perabih duit beli benda murah pahtu tak pkai!!!). And I don't know Sabah that well yet to crash into any facial centre and get myself suck, pinch, cut!!! gerun..
So. I googled cheaper way to do that without running myself to another debt! (ps: 60% of my gaji are used to pay debt or standby to pay the incoming debt!.. or bakal Him. Count yourself unlucky!). I just need some motivation and consistency to carry out my mission.
Betulkan niat dulu. Sahaja ako nk jadi lawa bukan tuk bagi org puji: Ohhh MS, zelita, santek!... Ako nk segak sikit untuk kepuasa diri bila tgk cermin tak la nmpk kawah gunung banyak sangat oooooiiii!!!
Bismillahirahmanirrahim. Hope for His blessing. Pray for me!