Ya know what!
I hate money management.
I hate to count everything that i paid deducting from what i have.
It usually drives me insane with my over spending. (Hanging myself soon!)
But this time is serious!
With the possibility of being unpaid for few months before the money starts to flow is seriously scaryyyy!!!!
I bang my head to the wall seeing the depleting buku biru..
From transportation to lodging!! Enormous!
And looking at the figure freaks me out!
Immediately cancelled all the nearby little outing..
Hilang akal! I'm so nearby the sea and yet my diving gear is jailed!
I am seriously considering a real simple life.
Will start cutting down more leisure (ahaaaaa!!! Hidung jadi panjang ... toingggg)
And i'll start with keeping a ledger book. (Kannnn! =.=|||)
Disciplineeeee button pressed. Mission will be activated on... May (ahahaha i do need some pampering before being serious kan!!!!!!)
Each time when i saw beautiful lady comes out from a luxurious car, i gets jealous! (Who does not kan!).. It's like they have the world. Killer heels, superb dress, gorgeous handbag and great hair style.
I need to hit jackpot or hook myself as mistress in order to live like that. (Eye drolling, saliva dripping)
One day, while i was driving my darling kancil with the window wind down, it hits my mind that: why do i need luxury? When i myself grew up as the simple me. I wear whatever on sale, seldom follow current trending attite (put peplum dress far far from me please!!). I can't even walked pass Zara without feeling miserable for dressing up far far farrrr from the mannequin. I don't even feel comfy strolling in Pavi alone (put me in pasar malam/hypermart and jangggg.. i rule! That's my kingdom!!).
So i cancelled a tempting purchase and go for more down to earth choice. Something resemble me more. Tak pa la kurang bergaya sikit. MS kan MS. She's miserably awesome just by being her!!!
Sapa kata tak teringin nak mengebat.. Teringin.. Tapi.. Bersederhanalah dalam segala urusan kita and live a life according to our ability. 4 tayar ja punnnn!!!
Ps: to people who is accustomed to modesty, sometime luxury is discomfort. -ms said-
Day 3 unemployed
Overslept due to the extremely superb weather.
It was raining when my alarm rang.
And deeeerrr.. Apa barang bgn?!
Awake half and hour after that.
Recited al-fatihah (been training myself to do this on daily basis)
Did my 30x sit ups, 10x pumping. (This explains my current widening shoulder!)
Prepared the boring breakfast: 2 sausages + egg + bread.
Decided to bring them to the balcony.
Enjoyed the dizzling rain while having breakfast.
Read few lines of books then got bored again!
Lunch prepared by Papa.
And time passed by just like that
Ps: i am seriously not fit to stay at home and go through easy life.
Can't wait! To work! Work! Work!
I went for an escape to the island with a group of sea lovers.
Then again i was asked the same boring question: Tak dak bf ka?
Have i been waiting for you?
We know each other less than 'long'.
Never once we have private time together.
Never once we spend time over meal together.
Just u and me.
Never once we share intimate moment together.
Basically we did nothing to be remembered of.
Why do i have your image floating in my mind.
No matter how much i wipe.
How fierce i chased them away.
It will still be there.
I don't even know u personally.
I see you from far.
Only from the net.
So why do i close myself?
So i started to pray and pray..
Ya Allah.. Close my heart.
Open it only to the One.
Till then.. Seal it..