MS does not fit in it

There were times when people i've never seen before invited me out..and i rejected by giving endless excuses.. They are either new friends or old and long lost friend.. Nothing specific.. They haven't seen me for ages or never see me before.. Like i said in my FB page.. Pictures tell thousand of lies.. I may look extra hyper in the pics or some define as err ''cool''.. but i'm nothing like that.. ask my close friends.. I'm just another annoying entity that talk rubbish and i am "BORING".. occasionally out of topic to chat.. i mean most of the time... so i choose to avoid meet up.. especially when the subjects are only the two of us.. 

Another thing is the look.. Yes.. quote always says: true beauty starts within you.. my inner is not that clean.. my heart is tainted..^^.. Again.. Sometimes camera loves you more than the reality... Make up helps to cover your flaws.. but when I'm standing in front of the mirror examining myself.. i know where i stand... And between routine jog and putting on daily face foundation, i find the latter one a burden to me! When imagining what plays in the heart of my date: 'ohh.. she's different from the pics".. i turn myself off.. fine.. no outing.. not when its only the two of us.. and US is the newly-make-friend/jejak kasih friends. 

Attire.. I'm not a trendsetter.. but i have my own way of mix-matching which always turns out to be : miss-matching.. i'm never someone that stand our in the crowd with flashing style.. I know you have to be yourself.. But when i am in the public.. u know.. u feel like you don't belong there.. its like u are so out of style and still you are there.. 

It's all comes from the words: Self Confidence.. I have mine.. But on above situations: NO... So i just wish to live a life with my existing circle of friends.. I just don't fit in 'Date'.. Its not like I'm going to starve myself if i don't date kan!!!!!