The first step

The journey of thousand miles begin with one step... so ive took my very first baby step in sharpening my independency... i took my lunch in the public alone!!! heheheh.. i hate n i dislike eating alone in the public... it looks so pathetic to me!! ksian gila kot~~!!!.. took the seat that face the road.. plug my mp3 in.. them errrkkkk i survive the whole lunch... hehehe wasnt that bad or kesian at all~~!!!... did short reading after lunch... whoaaa gaya cam suda bersedia ke oversea ini.. hahaha..

p/s: God has His own plan to all of us.. despite of my high hope to fly as high n as far as i could.. i still pray hard that he'll grant those little wishes... if He has better plan.. then who am i to doubt His decision..

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If I am to be granted a wish.. I’ll wish that I have a huge a family with at least 2 / 3 more brothers and sisters… then I won’t be tied to responsibility of being the only daughter of the family…

Why? Kenapa ako tak bersyukur ngan apa yang ako ada? Ako ada family yg tak susah, I was given a car to move around, Im continuing my study, I have activities to filled my schedule..

in return.. Im here...

nothing so bad about that.. it is just an empty feeling in me that keep urging me to find that empty pieces… I don’t think I can find it here… couldn’t describe in word what this feeling is about.. it is more to empty + loneliness that I need huge distraction to either filled the gap or for me to forget the opening… I am sure relationship is not the answer… I need to see the world.. I need to indulge myself to the alien and strange environment so that ill start to recollect my every pieces.. I don’t need to be understood… I just need to be away…

that’s why Im not ready to watch “Eat, pray, love” coz im afraid that im all too inspired that ill end up just grab a bag and leave… I know im capable of doing so… few more months to go… hope that my study will end up well and ill be gone… i want to return as a new person.. anything i am not...

Ako Kena Perli

Wahhh.. cam makin kerap ja peristiwa ako diperli kerna ke"sibuk"kan yg ako claim sendiri... daaannnnggg tercocok jap...

Semasa Conference.. Instead of presenting.. ako melaram tak tentu hala n i look like a super weirdo..maka...my pic..not included...