Bodoh + Sombong = Takbur

The wise always said: Jangan jadi bodoh sombong.. so wat’s this bodoh and sombong is all about? Bodoh is when a thing can be done in a nick of time but because of ur own “kebodohan” it took longer time to complete them… sombong refers to the situation where everyone goes through the same old process but u acting so blagak… and not wanting to go through the same route konon-kononnya u are capable of accomplishing your mission using different ways…

ahaaaa!!!! Ako bodoh and ako sombong… ako bodoh sebab ako dah g 3 klinik tuk buat medical check up… and 2 klinik pertama ako blah sbb kononnya ako malas nk tunggu…. Haaaaa ako sombong.. gayanya leh drive g klinik and can go even at night...!!! ahakkzz!!! P blah!!! Dapat hg.. g check ntah tak sampai 5 min… and turunkan cop yang tak seberapa… hambik.. RM 40!! Dengan alasan ako tak tunjuk paper medical check up masa pendaftaran.. hmmmm ako malas nk argue what is the rational nya ako hand in lambat and ako hand in cepat kan???? Nama pn org2 terpelajar.. takkan nk reverse kaedah tak reti kan? Prosedur kononnya.. ahhh…. Ako sah-sah p bagi kad matrix kt dia.. tau la.. ako ni student… terpelajarnya mereka… mengecaj student RM40 tuk check BP ngan tekap ngan stetoskop!!

Oohhh.. mula2.. ako cam nk maki ja … tapi ako pikir balik.. ni suma gara-gara ako takbur… Tuhan nk tunjuk tu… astarfirullahhalazim.. kenapa la ako jadi camni.. mana nya ako yang humble and down to earth tu? Kenapa la semenjak fellowship sambung balik ako jadi tak tentu hala… elaun tambah.. tapi ako sepnd pada tahap tak senonoh… ako easily bazirkan duit cam tak dak makna ja duit tu… Marina oooi!!! Elaun yg hg dapat tu duit cuka keringat rakyat… manusia ppuan oiiii!!!!!! Hg sewenang2 nya anggap RM20-RM30 tu tak banyak mana…hg ponteng kelas berbayar sesuka hati…. Apa nih… ???’

Shout out: ako nk wat rangka perbelanjaan tuk next month.. all will be going according to paper!!! Cam nk ja langgar kpala kt dinding… tp.. sakit…. T_T..

Plain Jane dan Tulip

Ikut definasi kebanyakkan orang.. plain jane referring to a women with average appearance dan juga ability.. Ia juga merupakan tajuk novel menulis fav ako.. Nurul Syahida.. Selaku orang yang ber"appearance" plain dan berkelakuan tidak plain... tidak begitu menggemari bunga... no no... ako juga tidak menggemari binatang... juga menunjukkan betapa ako bukan seorang yang penyayang... hakhakhak... motif??.. ako lebey menggemari benda yang realistik... benda yang mengenyangkan... or me"sweat"kan ako, or things yang dapat menambahkan ilmu ako...

tulip pula.. merupakan bunga yang segenap orang yang kurang romantik suka.. bg ako.. org yang romantik,, kegemaran dia adalah mawar... Dan... tulip istimewa wlaupun tidak segah mawar... tulip tiada madu dan tidak berbau... maka tidak menarik perhatian sang serangga... tapi dia tetap gah dan tegak menghiasi taman.... mawar cantik... berduri dan menarik... mawar menarik perhatian para serangga...

linknya antara dua.... orang yang biasa juga mampu memberi impak kepada situasi... wahai plain Jane (s) and John (s) ~~!!!!!! head up!!.. and believe in yourself..that you are.. precious...

shout out: tetiba nk g Holland..

What if.. if...

I was reading an article from theSun while eating my mom's pisang pancake (tempek pisang la...).. I couldnt recall the exact title but it is something like "falling in love with your best friend's boyfriend"... haaaa... nk kata ako poyo la tu.. eh tak... ako nak buat recap ulasan ja on the article.. bukan nak jd love guru giving out love lesson pn...

so in summary the steps to be taken if.. u just happen to be in such situation are: (according to the article okay..and versi ingat-ingat lupa + tambahan asam n garam skit...rempah juga!!)

1. Try to avoid hanging out with them. Anyhow your best friend and u used to hang out together kan before he/she got to know him/her..

2. Talk!! get someone trustworthy enough not to mulut murai and p jaja story dari chek kiah ke pak tam to talk to... u seriously need to talk...

3. if you best friend happen to sense your withdrawal from the activities u all plan t have together... again.. talk.. in a not dumb way.. dont go like "I'm all into your bla bla bal bf.. he is so.. bla bla bla.. i cant get him off my head..".. bimboos and bambees... itu kerja ngekss!! diffrent individual have different acceptance level in confronting benda-benda kusut cam love stuff... so b wise...

shout out: You cant force people to be in love and to fall out of love...

another jeritan : Your best friend is the treasure of the world... for me..

another jeritan kuasa dua : Friendship remains and never should end...

Buku dan Melancong... 2 2 ako mahu

Dah dua hari ako tak nganga tgk tv..!! wow... a few short info check on the program and was glad that none of them seduce me hard enough to watch.. wahahah... so basically.. i was able to stand firm on reducing tv program and spend more time reading... ahakz... it can be from the nobel reading material- Journals and scientific articles to ahakz... story books and blogs~~ read juga kan????

I bought 2 more books today.. not knowing when to read.. but it was extremely cheap.. 2 Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice & Persuasion for RM12??? hahaha yeng leh... !!! read first few pages... and kind of like it... ako minah rock yang agak ska layan cerita classical romance... back to the life where love was not that openly expressed.. and was nicely crafted in poems and stories in the indirect manner... ako rasa la kot... sbb ako tak la paham sangat kan poem dia... hahahaha tu yg ako rasa indirect ah.... ^_~..

Isshhhh still wasn't over the heartache feeling of knowing few of my best buddies are going to KSM without me... aissshhh.. blame on the slow me that forget to reapply for new passport earlier... sad aaahhh!!!! Few plans ahead was made for this trip... what to wear... even bought new slipper, hat,bag... and demmm... worst... i felt extremely guilty for planning the trip and ended up not going and being partially suspected for excusing myself from the trip with ahaaa so called unavoidable reason... Buddies... Maaf ya!!! ako tidak sengaja... truly madly sorry...tp cam stress.. they are ging to have the fun of a lifetime and huhh!!!! ako d Penang??Turning green...

Sebelum ke Imegresen

Balik ja dari kelas tajwid.. something stung me in the hand that i suddenly hit "chinese muslim malaysia revert blog" on the keyboard... numerous inspiring blogs popped out... after reading their stories and the hardship they came across after they converted... then i realize.. how easy my life compare to them... they initiate the change and its the responsibility of the future gen to maintain and uphold the efforts that they made...

wow... tat is soooo theory... bet 2 biji of limau mandarin... out of 5 there might be he most 2 families are following the law as it is... me? mesti aah among the other 3.. bukan buka pekung di dada... (ako wangi!!!ako pkai bedak alken and deodorant sanex okay!!) .. tp tu la hakikatnya... tp ako still bersyukur.. i wasnt toooo off the track... although demmm i am a rule breaker... but heheheh i always believe He'll still loves me and always watched over me... and i'll always be reminded indirectly whenever im off the limit... ahhhh... ^_^... alhamdulillah...

tak wajar kiranya ako bandingkan diriku ngan org yg lebih kureng kan... itu bukan improvement namanya.. itu..mencari excuse... haaaa!! mari mari... kita berusaha~~ ako tak minta org faham ngan who i am and what ive turn out to be... coz you can never understand.. coz u are not me.. vice versa juga... just pray for me... pray that ill be a better person in life... of coz ler... i'll pray for u olzz too...

Shout out: ako tak alim.. tapi ako bukan jahil..ako... cuma tidak pandai berhujah cam org lain...

1 pagi

Baru pas abiskan novel [Tunas].. one word.. kagum... kagum ngan school life budak-budak dalam novel tu... wahh... amazingly interesting... tetiba nyesal.. tp benda dah lepas.. if only gear reverse applicable to any truly regretful event in our life, then i'll start with before PMR... tapi.. to hell those angan-angan...

ako cemburu.. jeles dengan budak asrama yang dapat true bond yang kekal till now.. a lone ranger myself, bonding tu cam satu perkara asing and weird to me.. even ako tak dak so called bff.. i barely touch anyone's life.. ako come and make noise ping pong pang pang... then left.. without trace.. pastu kembali pada dunia "meng" (dream) ako@novel and tv drama... dari secondary school lg... ako tak g date, ako tak reti lepak dkt shopping complex tgk org... ako tak reti hangout kt tmpt fast food for hours.. after any class or school end, ako nek bus cow trus blk then buka tv ngaga... true... ramai org cakap ako girl next door... kot... cuma ako tak skema ler..coiiiiii~~

nasib masuk uni... He granted my inner crust wish to socialize... maka... ako jumpa geng ako.. tu pun.. km jumpa once a while... png pong pang pang... then shhhhhh for weeks or months... then ada mission.. bising blk... kawan-kawan rapat yg lain pn camtu... klau jumpa cam nk terbalik tamannya sembang... klau tak... senyap... p lab pn ako sronok... ada geng gila ska gelak n ska nyanyi.... tapi same... in then out...

at 1 am in the morning!!ako menganalisis condition ako yang agak... clueless ini... adakah ako mengalami silent psychological disorder... tak kot... normal kot.. ako pn rimas gak benda cling cling terlebey nih... tapi... ako rasa normal... ako assume ako normal...

p/s: ako ingin memiliki satu kelebihan yang spesifik... tapi ako tgh fikir... yg mana satu perlu ako asah dan khususkan....

Percubaan = Attempts

1 feb lepas... was ahaaa.. the first invincible step to the quarter century life... aiihhh~~~ achievements?? Teetttt... cam tu cam tu jer... but i am grateful to be blessed with circle of friends that are with me through rain and shine... so... i received 3 gifts this year and 150+ FB wishes.. (hmm not bad.. from 600+ friends..neary 25%!! eheheheh)..

Basically theme for bday this year is "Attempts":

First: Attempts to encourage or re"burn" semangat fotografiku... ^_^

this bag... had this at 11.50pm and hahahah "chewi"nya ako... membuka sebaik saja jam berdetik 12.. heheh.. I love the texture of the bag sooo much... ako gelar material camni.. Earth.. and ako slaku pencinta alam.. sangat la menjerit di kala melihat texture dalamannya yang diselang seli dengan kain bermotifkan africa... ada merah-merah skit lak tu...hehehe.. Heyyy kamu... thanks... u always read me well... sambil menggalas beg ni menyidai baju tgh malam...

Second: Yg ni plg lawak... attempt to memperempuankan ako... ahakzzz..

helloooo.. earings okay~~ co-celeb with mamat bijak paling blur penah ako jumpa... T_T... kata mereka.. susah nk cari the masculinity in feminism... and mission succeed!! lega... org tertarik pd earing more than me... ^_^.. and terasa glamor~~ ahakz... terkilan tak dapat join karaoke session pastu...~~ tp dapat makan kerabu soohooonn... hoyeayyy

Third: Attempt kembali ke pangkal jalan...

heheh.. berkat sumbangan budak-budak lab.. i chose a tafsir+tajwid Al-Quran.. ahhhhh dalam dia warna merah... hehehe... so akan diusung ke kelas tajwid stiap isnin n selasa... wink wink... thakssss you olz...

everyone:: hanya ucapan terima kasih yg dapat ako berikan.... nnt ako top up top up la budi hgpa suma yer... ^_^.. kamsahamnida...