
Friday, January 07, 2011
instant fame??

Thursday, January 06, 2011
@_@

Terinspire



Sunday, January 02, 2011
2 Jan 2010
Orang new year.. ako pn kalut nak new year.. sedangkan new year tak bawa pn maksud apa-aa kat ako.. neither any day in the calender brings any meaning to me.. except for the day start puasa la...!! waduhh~~ pusing... hehehe... ahhh puasa belum ganti lagi..
“stress” dh menjadi perkataan fav ako dah.. ntah la dari mana la ako g celup perkataan nih.. rerasanya ntah.. tak dapat lak ako nak recall..
Hari ni adik hitamku balik.. hehehe semenjak kami 2 2 dah makin mendewasakan umur kami nih.. rasa cam makin rapat lak.. in terms of tak mencarut n menjerit aah... heheh walaupun ako masih ska bagi nama tak senonoh kt dia.. hehehe tapi alhamdulillah dia relax ja.. hehehe... dlu shop ngan dia antara perkara paling menyakitkan jiwa dan raga ako... he is demmmm fussy when it comes to what he wants to wear... pastu skrang he actually asked for my opinion.. !!!! ako apa lagi.. merepek la ikut sedap mata.. heheh of coz i make sure he looks good in watever i suggested.. heheh cam zaman barbie lak eh main dress up org.. and they pay themself.. hehehe
Ahhh skrang dah mula mengajar balik dah.. masa mula2 before nak g.. harem siut ako malas nk kuar rumah... berguling2 n berpening-pening ako.. tapi bila dah start mengajar.. cam nk saja ako bw student tu balik rumah n ajar dia sampai pandai.. hehehe... kesian kt anak ako nnt. mesti dapat mental depression.. ill make him/her do maths everyday!!padan muka.. hekhekhek~~!!
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Dilema
Ako d crossroad again... susah btul jadi org cam ako... unable to make correct decision and follow ja whatever come across yang ako rasa cam best... Labwork yang tak progress ke mana.. tetiba disuruh lak tukar tajuk..whoaaa~~~~ kena lak reject from recent interview... hmmm bukan ako berharap pn.. sbb nnt kena wat benda yang ako tak minat sangat...tapi again and again nih kena reject... 2 kali ok for the govt post!! mula la ako tertanya-tanya nih...ngan swasta senang lak ako dpt cilok masuk... Ada org penah bagi hint... try pkai tudung tgk.. senang kot dpt... alaa bukan tak mo pkai.. tp for sure klau pkai nnt ako buka gak... sat la.. nnt btul2 ako dpt feel tu, ako pkai trus aah..walaupn time tu ako kt Korea ka, kt US ka.. (heheheh brangan siut~~)
tipu la klau ako kata ako bukan jenis bercita-cita besar... ako sgt ambitious... ako nk terbang tinggi dan jauh~~ tp current situation cam merestrictkan kan ja mimpi-mimpi ako.. Fellowship yg ntah disambung ntah tak... ishhh ishhh ishhh... nk dkt new year dah ni...
Ako dah janji pd diriku... ako kena kumpul duit tahun depan.. ako kena bekerja keras.. kena kumpul harta balik... semua kawan2 dah do sangat well ngan hidup depa... so ako dah tak boley travel for at least 1 year... d mana ako rasa cam impossible ja.. ni pn dah berpintal dah urat saraf ako tak dpt g jejalan n tersekat nafas ako sbb ako dah mula berjimat cermat tahap tak tentu hala.. dah tak boley shop cam dlu dah...
Hopefully start new sem nih... things will get better la...ako nk:
- upgrade belt ako.. 3 tahun blue... gila apa ka...
- tulis lebih banyak artikel
- kurang menonton TV
- boley bermain at least 1 lagu pekak pn jadi la...
- continue menghafal vocab vocab bahasa korea...
- kurang melaser!! (mulut ako mmg kadang-kadang sial)
- Nak g tgk concert and teater..!!!
Suma pekerjaan melara~~ ishhh
Saturday, November 27, 2010
The list goes on and on and on...
backstreet boys was the first boy group that was introduce to me.. And Nick instantly became my fav with his innocent look and character.. (that was before he turn huge and fell for Paris and i was like: Why the hell i fell for him????) He barely took off his shirt on the first album.. maybe because he lack of those packs.. After that?? huhhh always showing off the not successful attempts... simpan la weh!!!
Then Leo came to picture with the huge hit from Titanic. I gathered all his pics and stickers (or any merchandise that i can buy or steal!! hehehe..).. But till this moment i have yet to watch full version of titanic!! just the front part and the end... that movie was rated NOT ALLOWED by my pa at that time.. c Kate Winslet g half naked nya psal la nih!! So i stick my pencil box (which was made from the box of the video tape) with all his pics and carried proudly everywhere..

I laid my hand on his first compilation album and instantly hooked... A very talented man with the ability to goreng any music instruments u can think off.. And of coz the first time heard him converse in English, i went like: perghhhh !!!! and he is academically smart with the acceptance to yale and Princeton but chose music college instead... ^_^..the craze lasted for 2 albums.. until Wei Yi then the craziness slightly went off....

Jericho Rosales!! hahahaha Man.. whenever i looked at him, the images of him as Christian in Sana'y Wala Nang Wakas and Angelo in Pangako Sa 'Y0 butterflies everywhere in my... At that moment if my frens asked me how is ur dream guy looks like? Instantly He'll be the answer... So basically i was the loyal fan watching nearly 200++ episodes because of him (and the entire cast of coz..those two were good drama).. This guy lasted for years during my adolescent year... (God.. felt so old now..wawawaw)
During uni life.. i wasnt that into celeb.. was busy with activities.. But i think Hyun Bin was the wallpaper in my laptop for quite sometime.. Get to know him in My lovely SamSon.. He is a good actor!! what add to it is.. he got this long back that whenever he put on kemeja, he looks good from back... ^0^.. that time the slim cut man office wear just started to hit malaysia.. So he looks the best in it that time!! hehehehe
Rob pat!! waaaa... He hit my dream countless time during the airing of Twilight in the cinema.. watched that in the cinema.. and i was alll crazy about him... super crazy.. bought all other twilight saga collections. Cut all news paper with his face.. even spent my money on imported magazine for like small sections of him.. peiiii!!! apa punya budak.. hehehe... Why i like him? i actually like Edward Cullen more than him.. Like it when he tense his jaw muscle.. when he looks at bella from far.. protecting her in silent.. and like it when he looks at bella with those pair of mysterious eye... wow.. but after watched new moon.. i fell OUT of affection on him... Terlalu control tak tentu hala!!!

Now.. Latest craze and i think will last for few omore years... is... T.O.P!! hahahaha.. from Big Bang.. First got to know his existance is through I am Sam. He acted as Moo shin.. And after some digging then bla bla bla.. i had his pic in my hp as my wallpaper!! hahaha.. Why i like him? at the first place.. he is charismatic + very hehehe nan ren wei!!! whoaaaa... Well couldnt help... BSB song's If U Want to Be A Good Girl, Get Yourself A Bad Boy.. hehehe.. I am already a good girl.. doesnt hurt to admire a bad-boy-look with good attitude... smart+charismatic+bad boy look+deep voice will suffocate me!!!! gluupp glupp... hehehe.. if i am to be asked why i want to be an actress (if i be one) my answer is:: coz i want to go to Pusan International Film Fes.. and meet him and snap pic with him!!! waaaaaa in my dream la~~!!
p/s: i was often said to have bad taste in defining good looking.. ngehhh!! it doesnt take only good looking face to caught people's eye ler... the package~~ the X on the very moment you see him.. TOP!!! Sarang Hae.. ^0^
Saturday, November 06, 2010
Dont Lose it..
I think some of u might be aware that i just came back from Cambodia. An annual reward to myself at least once a year im out of the country. The trip was great!!! With good traveling mates.. what else do u ask for..?? But orang tua-tua always cakap.. kita buat apa jangan seronok sangat.. jangan lupa beringat and berjaga-jaga..
To cut the story short. The beg that i was clinging on was cut from the back and the thief took my clutch with 100 USD (RM 300++), passport, cards... IC was in another wallet.. luckily!!
So here are the tips before going to any of the night market..
1. Do not bring along any beg. Put the money or any documentation in ur pocket.
2. Photocopy ur passport. Leave the original in the hotel. Never carry them out!!
3. Always prepare back up money in your hotel just in case any bad events like this happen again.
And what need to be done when you lost your passport:
1. Go to the nearest police station. Some country required tourist to report unfortunate event to the Tourist Police Centre (not the normal police station). So ask the nearest law enforcement officer where should u head to.
2. With the official police report (make sure there's always an english copy attached with the report that u made. can be ur own handwritten report), go direct to your country's embassy.
3. Prepare small sum amount of money for the emergency exit visa processing money. (not bribing!! normal fees)
4. With the letters from the embassy and temporary passport, go to the imegrsen office (usually situated near the airport).
5. Pass all the letters from the embassy to the imegresen office. (keep the original one!!)
6. The office will arrange a special officer from the tower to fetch you all lead you all the way through all the check points in the airport. ( u either are criminal or hot glam celeb.. i felt like a celeb instead... hahahaha)
7. With all the original documents, do la new passport!!! in ur own country la of coz..
p/s: please be careful. the whole process of redoing your passport is not easy!!! it takes lots of patience and luck.. but hey!! if it happens.. stay cool and be humble when u communicate with all the personnel. Do not rush them too obviously... !! and dont forget to thank them million times...!!
Thursday, October 07, 2010
The first step
p/s: God has His own plan to all of us.. despite of my high hope to fly as high n as far as i could.. i still pray hard that he'll grant those little wishes... if He has better plan.. then who am i to doubt His decision..
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
catatan diary ku
Why? Kenapa ako tak bersyukur ngan apa yang ako ada? Ako ada family yg tak susah, I was given a car to move around, Im continuing my study, I have activities to filled my schedule..
in return.. Im here...
nothing so bad about that.. it is just an empty feeling in me that keep urging me to find that empty pieces… I don’t think I can find it here… couldn’t describe in word what this feeling is about.. it is more to empty + loneliness that I need huge distraction to either filled the gap or for me to forget the opening… I am sure relationship is not the answer… I need to see the world.. I need to indulge myself to the alien and strange environment so that ill start to recollect my every pieces.. I don’t need to be understood… I just need to be away…
that’s why Im not ready to watch “Eat, pray, love” coz im afraid that im all too inspired that ill end up just grab a bag and leave… I know im capable of doing so… few more months to go… hope that my study will end up well and ill be gone… i want to return as a new person.. anything i am not...
Tuesday, October 05, 2010
Ako Kena Perli
Monday, September 06, 2010
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kengkadang ako rasa lucu gak ngan pepatah air dicincang tak akan putus.. hehehe..indeed benda tu cam true.. yesterday ended with me crying myself to sleep thinking that there will be no more hope for us to reconcile.. tup tup.. today we are talking like nothing happens.. hahaha lawak lawak... but still yesterday's bad event should be a pinch to my head to not to repeat the same mistake again.. hehehe so conclusion.. going back for berbuka today.. (ingat nk mediate dkt lab till late late at night..)
I am worst than i always be
I have this bad temper when it came to waiting.. Super bad one.. to add to the flavor.. i need to wait for 30min?? an achievement that i dont just walk off with any taxi or bus... numerous phone calls were made to reach him.. Yet none succeed.. With tremble hand i dialed my ma's cell no.. Astarfirullah... I actually couldnt even control my tone.. most of them were high key!!! adehh... she even being forced to fetch me all the way from her factory... nearly 30 min of waiting the most awaited car arrived... i was so pissed that no explanation seems to be logic to me.. Astarfirullah... no wonder i was reminded again and again that i dont have good heart and with bad temper..
i definitely know that what i did was wrong but couldn bring myself to apologize.. the worst trademark i have in me is :sorry seems to be the hardest word when it come to my family.. of coz i took thing for granted again and again...
probably i wasnt meant to be too close to anyone.. distance is always the best way so that people dearest to me never get hurt with what i did... Yeah.. the less im around.. the better it is for everyone..
p/s: it is always nice to have a place for you to escape..
Wednesday, September 01, 2010
Craving for Activity
Today mark the last day of my independent horayyy can eat day of the month.. hehehe thus was thinking of crushing to McD or KFC to grab some tidbits (do i spell it right.. hmmm)..
I have this crazy maya imagination nowadays... to write a screenplay.. gila.. Have this great story plot in mind yet couldnt deliver them in words.. Hello all my mother tongues are tauge ok!! how i wish there's some writer wanted to pen them into words.. Like some of the celeb for instance, i bet they arent that smart to write their own bibliography.. They hire a good writer and boommm!! a ntah apa-apa master piece published (they claimed!!)..
Hehehe i am fascinated by the foreign director for being able to focus on a particular theme and elaborate them so well than us the viewer actually gain something from the movie.. knowledge about how to make cakes, pasta and etc... Hmmm.. Don't worry folks.. our locals are picking up by expanding and diversifying the story line... The progress might be slow but we are picking up.. !!
What i want to write is something related to tae kwon do.. Hekhek.. daaaaa no surprise.. hehehe there's plenty of die hard practitioner of this sport ok.. How this sport evolve and effect our life.. the Siamese, the korean and chinese have been so well established in producing martial arts movies. maka ako pn bercita-cita besar la juga to write... I think ill start one.. bahasa rojak.. boley kot.. heheh..

Monday, August 09, 2010
Back On Track
With the unstoppable tickling of clock indicating the approaching of many big events: the Ramadhan, Raya, Diving trip.. worst of all the date line for paper submission.. Arghhh... by hook or by crook i need a paper to be published.. What if i dont publish my paper? Half of the elaun will be cut.. (by the time the new year start.. i wish that i wont be involve in any of the tuition class anymore...not home tuition at least...).. then no more trips.. pay own master bills.. fuhhh cant u see how tough it sounds if i dont start to work like a bull? So here's the plan..
1. Sample extraction every morning... Although that particular day i don't plan to run any sample..
2. Each day ill change the manipulative variable...
3. Sample drying took quite some time.. so while extracting all the sample.. ill proceed with the sample's drying..
4. Prepare stock solution for all the solvent.. Pour the solvent of interest to the small beaker for each round.. do not pipette out directly from the reagent bottle.. to avoid any contamination (found few ghost peak on my chromatogram ..hmmm)
5. By the end of the week, do the bulk amount of injection into the machine..
6. Leisure activity need to be reduced.. which means TKD training might need to escape.. yes i love to train.. but things is serious now.. piakk piakk... I'm wide awake now..(force to)
7. I'll still go short jog during the puasa month.. in the evening.. at least to maintain my stamina and blood pressure.. am hoping that the reading doesnt drop to dangerous level.. hmmm.. that's all..
p/s: Have 4 hours of incubation time.. in between that time, ill jog and prepare new all the solvents~~!! got lots to do !! Wachaaa fighting~~~!!!
Thursday, August 05, 2010
Mereka Cakap
Mama juga cakap: Ako tak cantik..Ako tak semanis adik ako.. harap ke putih ja..
Papa cakap: ako berangin...
Adikku cakap : Semua hg kata betui... Hg ni period memanjang...
Ishhh.. Reflect reflect~~
Sunday, August 01, 2010
Plan
hmmm tindakan tidak mencatatkan what i want to do seems to be killing my time unwisely.. Ok.. i have few more hours to go before the day end...
Let's start with:
1. Printing all the results using the recycle paper!!
2. Prepare phosphate buffer baru .. Use other pH meter..
3. Weight some set of sample.. so that kerja senang skit next time if want to do.. blasah ja wat..
4. Discard some of the unwanted samples.. wat nyemak ja kot..
5. Evening jog.. hehehehe 3 hari kot dah tak sweat..
p/s: plan plan plan... next time plan plan plan plan...
Monday, July 26, 2010
Ako dan Hari Esok
Nifsu Syaban is the middle of the syaban month..(tgh bulan ler).. It can be considered as the month of celebration since we are allowed to eat during the day before we welcome the ramadhan month.. Maka ako pn googled la mencari fadhilat puasa pada hari nih.. ahhh.. found the following..(celup jer)
“Allah melihat kepada hamba-hamba-Nya pada malam Nisfu Syaaban, maka Dia ampuni semua hamba-hamba-Nya kecuali musyrik (orang yang syirik) dan yang bermusuh (orang benci membenci).” [Riwayat Ibn Hibban, al-Bazzar dan lain-lain].” nk tahu lebey lanjut klick cni kot
Before jumpa the above statement pn ako agak plan dah nak puasa selain lah bendera merah menyerang.. hehehe mak ako dah masak dah pn nasi tuk esok n ada leftover sup by our chef of half day – My Pa.. so of coz la ako posa.. lagipn..the whole geng from the lab will be fasting.. bertambah membara la niat nak posa nih.. hehehe..
So tomorrow`s plan will be:
1. Ill buzz the Centre’s door right after the subuh prayer (ako mandi la dulu!!).estimated time of arrival is 6.30am. coz pas subuh on fasting day..sememangnya ako akan tumbang balik n ended up at 10 plg awal..
2. Do the 4 hours incubation preparation..
3. Once ja the clock count start..ill crush the surau room and incubate myself prior to the sample incubation time.. hehehehe.. (was reminded to bring toto as well!! Abis ako terover pengsan nnt..)
4. Kena bawa pencuci muka to wash away all the nylon yg terhasil.. hehehe..
5. Pastu apa lagi..kerja kerja!! Lab lab lab..experiment experiments.. I really hope I wont throw out due to the chemicals.. (euu the extraction part can be super busuk and smell dangerous!!!hello.. dichloromethane can even dissolve a plastic easily and I accidently wet my hand with that few times..taubat bnyk kali pn sama ja!! Wear ticker glove!!!!)
P/s: had cappuccino with sista in d afternoon (tq for the treat!!) and came back home realizing that the omg.. the cough syrup dah abis!!! Dang~~!!! Im going to be a zombie tonight.. eh ako nk mkn ubat batuk coz I am batuk!!! And of coz I sleep better when im on it.. hahahaha..
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Ahead Plan
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explanation: whenever i am in d lab, ill spend nearly 1 hour on the net.. this 1 hour can drag and drag and drag to longer period.. depending on the heaviness of the traffic in between my browsing page.. hehehe.. net can be boring once awhile and addicting at the same time..
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So ill make a simple draft on tomorrow's plan.. hmmm nama pn plan saja!!
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1. Ill dry whatever non dried samples.. (since toleration is need in sharing the machine... i actually have time to catch a movie tommorow!!!)
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2. Print and pasting work.. (Make sure that it is done!!)
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3. Collect cek from the canselori.. (org punya.. not mine!!)
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4. Go to Korean Language Class.. (still have butterfoies whenever im going to the class..again the left out issue..bila nak abis nih???)
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5. Yeayyy!! Ko-k will officially start tomorow.. hmm stay back for first TKD training.. so many gossip to collect.. hehehe..
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6. Tuition at night..
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p/s: people said i pretended to be busy.. but i am busy arent i?Not to count going out for lunch..hmmm where yer?heheh
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p/s again: I finished Jude Deveraux - Someone to love.. (then i realize..i actually enjoy very much classical romance+thriller..less high tech and technically less technology term for me to understand..)
Dibetray or Membetray
Hati manusia ni of coz sememangnya susah untuk disukat.. apa lagi nak meramal apa yg sebenar-benarnya.. Even ako sendiri pn kadang2 topeng juga.. so boley ako blame org kiranya ako buat benda sama? klau tgk cermin (selain dari terkejut ngan muka penuh kawah itu..) ako kiranya berundur lah dari mencetus kontroversi.. Euuu bila ako tgk gossip girl ako cam ishh poyo nya depa ni.. napa make big on an issue.. perlu ker?? tapi sah-sah..what's going on in the movie most probably related to the daily life kan.. maka ada la bebrapa kumpulan manusia yang akan mengalami situasi yang sama..mestilah ako join skaki jugak...aihhh~~~ hmmm politikus politik la katakan.. klau pikir2 balik.. ahh pedulikkan ja la.. tak kurus pn ako dimakan gossip.. kena juga g jog.. so ako pn pedulikkan ja la.. walaupn cam nak je tarik2 rambut pastu wat head banging jap sbb terstress.. kan dah scientifically proven.. it's easier to smile than to make sour face.. and dari kedut2 and wrinkle ako yang belungguk tu bertambah.. baik ako lepak n teruskan hidup ako dengan seadanya..
ni tgh stress aah nih asyik kena panggil ngan mak ako ja... ahhh stress....ahh kedutt.....
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Gimme that
Today's Mission:
1. Inject Sample
2. 2 more sample for SPE clean up..
3. Do scuba club's stuff..
4. Go to pameran buku.. (bought books yesterday!! hahaha..lawak..buying again today.. )
5. Lazy want to jog..if go back early then want go aerobic..
6. Tuition!!
