Curtain closed

When he told me that red is her fav color. 
I felt like saying saying: It is mine too. 
But. I ended up saying: Congratulation!!!! 

Dulu dan kini

Dulu...
Ku suka seseorang.
Ku katakan pada Tuhan:
Hentikan perasaan ini jika dia bukan untukku.

And He did.

Kini..
Ku rasa..
Sesorang suka pada ku.
Ku katakan lagi pada Tuhan:
Hentikan fasa ini jika dia bukan jodohku.

And He did.

Ya Tuhan..
Walau ku tidak tahu apa yang menunggu..
Ku percaya pada Mu..

She's like that

Bestie is getting married!
I'll be one of the bridesmaids.
I'm happy for her.
Yet,
I feel dreadful for myself.

Dear God,
I have faith in your arrangement.
I pray that he'll be worth of all these waiting.
Do align my heart if it strays.
If it is fated to be not occupied,
Do strengthen it to face days to come.
Do fill it with your love and blesses.
Do put loneliness and emptiness away from it.

Love,
Forever a pest,
MS

Telan.. Tahan..

Being a friend to your good guy friend's girlfriend is NEVER an easy task.

How i wish jealousy is never part of the emotion. Boring!!! 

You drew her

I can see how happy she was when you drew her.

She's a lucky girl. 

As another day has passed

I was a little bit stressful today.
Long hours in the lab.
Machine breakdown.
And found that i lost my steering lock key.
And need to rent a car back home.
Pa said my spare key is no where to be found.
And so i laid down on the floor.
Energy flat.
Then i browse through instagram.
And fav page is Fynn Jamal's.
And i saw Juna's face smilling.
And some of his short vid laughing n playing.
And i am charged!
Shit!!
If i just happen to be unlucky to be unmarried,
I'll be a mother.

I make an oath again!

Ya.. again.. for the mek-tak-sure how many times. I wanna be pretty uolss! (Slaps kiri 2x, kanan 4x). Before that, this statement was type in between me slurping my just-made laksa (taste wise? improving!! ^.^V).. ahhh melalut lagik..

As usual la.. end of the month we tend to fantasize this and that while counting days bila laaaaa hari gaji nih wehhh!!! But then this suka-belanja-cam-pegawai besar nih tend to overspent every month! Weirdly, i dont buy expensive baju or what. Dine at home most of the time. But money flies buying tiny things (My bro's fav ayat: Hang mmg suka perabih duit beli benda murah pahtu tak pkai!!!). And I don't know Sabah that well yet to crash into any facial centre and get myself suck, pinch, cut!!! gerun..

So. I googled cheaper way to do that without running myself to another debt! (ps: 60% of my gaji are used to pay debt or standby to pay the incoming debt!.. or bakal Him. Count yourself unlucky!). I just need some motivation and consistency to carry out my mission.

Betulkan niat dulu. Sahaja ako nk jadi lawa bukan tuk bagi org puji: Ohhh MS, zelita, santek!... Ako nk segak sikit untuk kepuasa diri bila tgk cermin tak la nmpk kawah gunung banyak sangat oooooiiii!!!

Bismillahirahmanirrahim. Hope for His blessing. Pray for me!